So today, I walked into my classroom having not touched it since the 21st.
I know some of you had that situation but can't help it, but ever since the 30th, I was able to come into school if I wanted to, and I didn't. In fact, I didn't even touch the mountain of grading I needed to catch up on until two days ago (and it's still only about half done).
I walked in almost wanting to put my hand over my eyes. Seriously, had I not been carrying 20 lbs. of Teacher Bag and Overflow Teacher Bag, I probably would have been peeking through my fingers. I was remembering stacks and piles and just plain mess...
And it wasn't as bad as I remembered! VICTORY!
Now, I still have a school To Do list about 3 miles long, but I don't really mind.
I feel like I actually got a break.
My husband knows- I always do this thing on a break where I relax a little, but not enough to feel relaxed and I get some things done, but not enough to feel accomplished. It leaves me in this awkward catch-22 where I didn't get enough of either thing- relaxation or productivity- and leaves me feeling worse than I started.
This break, I finally did it. I took enough of a true stay-in-pajamas, watch-too-much-TV, eat-junk-food, just-plain-hang out break for it to actually feel like a break from work.
And yet, I got enough done around the house (and enough quality time with loved ones) to not feel like the break was a total waste, either.
Sure, my classroom is a pit. But when I came in today, I didn't have any regrets, and that's pretty darn amazing.
As any teacher but especially a new teacher, I feel like it's so easy to let yourself constantly feel swamped, like there are a million things you HAVE to do. But I'm going to try to give myself one night a week that is just "off"- where I don't do anything school-related and don't feel a bit guilty, because man, this break felt wonderful.
It was JUST what I needed!
I hope you had a great day today!! How do you give yourself enough "me" time during the school year?